Thursday, June 11, 2009

ako ang simula!

Last month ko pa natapos basahin ang bagong libro ni Bob Ong, ang Kapitan Sino. Gaya ng dati, color-coded din ang ika-pitong libro na kulay black-silver with white print. Matapos ang MacArthur, ang Kapitan Sino ang ikalawang aklat ni BO na nagpapakita ng totoong problema ng Pilipinas. Magaan at tulad ng dati, kwela pa rin ang paglalahad ng kwento.

Para sa akin, si Kapitan Sino ay sumasalim sa bawat mamamayan ng Pilipinas. Tama si Aling Hasmin (isa sa mga tauhan ng kwento), hindi mo kailangan ng pangalan para tumulong sa kapwa. Hindi mo kailangang maging superhero para makatulong, lalong hindi rin kailangang maging presidente o pulitiko para maging solusyon sa problema. Bawat isa sa atin ay may mahalagang papel na dapat gampanan tungo sa pagbabagong hinahangad natin.

Kahapon ay naganap ang pakikipagtulungan ng aming kumpanya sa Boto Mo, I-patrol Mo: Ako ang Simula, isang campaign drive ng ABS-CBN bilang paghahanda sa nalalapit na 2010 Election. Layunin ng proyektong ito na mabantayan ang eleksyon, mai-report ang mga magsasamantala at mandaraya sa eleksyon. Isa itong "people power with a new technology" ayon kay Maria Ressa (Head-ABS News and Current Affairs).

Siguro nga, dito tayo pwedeng magsimula. Ito ang unang hakbang para makapagbigay, ng hindi man malaki, kahit konting pagbabago sa Pilipinas. Sa eleksyon, lahat tayo pantay-pantay. Ito ang pagkakataon natin para pigilin ang mga taong may sariling interest laban sa interest ng nakararami.

H'wag na tayong maghintay sa isang bayani. Ako ang Simula. Ako si Kapitan Sino!


"hindi ka bayani dahil sa kaya mong gawin, bayani ka dahil sa mga ginagawa mo!"

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

Lessons of Kansurok

It was four o’clock in the morning when I finally reached my place in Quezon City after a week-long mission trip in Kansurok, Marinduque. Although my body was tired and aching, I can’t sleep yet, the energy is still up, my heart is still worshipping GOD for all the amazing things He had done for the group and especially for me during that week.

Evidently, GOD was in control throughout the daily vacation bible school (DVBS) that we conducted for the people of Kansurok. From financial provision, good health and the great weather He gave us for the whole time of DVBS, HE is simply amazing GOD!

It was my second time to visit the people of Kansurok, and true enough it was sweeter the second time around. It was this time where I became closer to the people of Kansurok particularly to the little fellows (I miss them na!), I came to know more of the member of the mission team, developed friendship with them, and learned from their stories.

During my first time in Kansurok, God revealed to me the ministry where I can fully use my ability and that’s in SCE-Children’s ministry. God changed my heart to be more tolerant to children’s behavior and gave me so much love for the kids.

My second trip to Kansurok unveiled more of the attributes of our Lord Jesus that I should depend on. His provisions are overflowing, His promises are true, His plan is great, His power is magnificent and God will always be present through the end of times.

It also made me realized that His plans are greater than mine. All I need to do is to obey Him and to listen to His calling.

God also used this trip to open my eyes to what is truly essential in life – having God in your heart is more than enough! The contentment and peace I had because of Jesus is one of the greatest realizations of this mission.

Moreover, God taught me to open my heart in order to see His purpose for me. He taught me to fully surrender to His will and to depend on His power. God is forever faithful! (Thanks to Ate Helen, Ate Neth and Ate Ana!)

It was also an amazing experience to see God's wonderful creation - the nature. Together with the Kansurok people, Kuya Cesar, Joel and Kuya Noel, we climbed the highest peak in Kansurok, Ang Mataas na Bundok (not so obvious!)From there, you really can feel how great is our God, He is the God of wonders!

I promise that I'll be back again to serve the royal highness! :)

Saturday, June 6, 2009

Kansurok: My 1st Mission

(originally posted on Dec 08, 2008)

I first heard of Kansurok Missions Trip last August and I was saddened that I was not able to join the team then. And so, I promise that the next time there will be another mission trip, I will join them by hook, or by crook.

At last, God opens the door for me to serve Him when I was told that there will be another mission trip to Kansurok on November 5-10. I immediately grabbed the opportunity to join the team and since then, I constantly prayed to the Lord, that He will allow me to be part of this mission trip. God favored me and permitted me to join.

Quite frankly, I was a bit overwhelmed as I was given the chance to be part of this 5-day mission trip - to be an ambassador for Christ in a town that is totally far-off to me. I admit that I was a bit anxious and I didn’t know what to expect since it was my first time going on a mission trip. However, as I took that first step of faith and consented, the nervousness soon turned into excitement. “Therefore go and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, and teaching them to obey everything I have commanded you. And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age”. These words of encouragement and comfort from Matthew 28 gave me all the strength and will-power I needed to complete the desire of my heart to go on and proclaim the good news of the Lord.

The Kansurok Mission Trip was simply awesome. God’s grace and favor was strongly evident during the entire course of the trip. I was met with the warmest welcome that a stranger could hope for in a distant land. The people quickly captured my heart with their warm smiles and kind words. Having gone there to help and to serve, I was humbled by their hospitality and their zeal in caring for our needs.

The primary focus of this mission trip was evangelism. And I thank God for my EE Training that I’ve used during the mission. In Kansurok, I saw a place that displayed an insatiable thirst for Christ. Our team walked into these towns crossing the rivers and conducted door-to-door evangelism, open-air meetings, evangelistic crusade and church service creating a Christian awareness in this environment. The response that we received was amazing. People welcomed us into their homes with open hearts, some with tear-filled faces. They received our prayers and listened eagerly as we shared the Gospel. Several people accepted Christ into their hearts for the very first time. A few came forward in obeying the Lord in water baptism.

We were so happy and thrilled to see how the kids of Kansurok embraced the Gospel message and play cheerfully knowing that everything is for Jesus. It was great to see them talk and even pray without any hesitation. I remember one time, when we saw these kids praying earnestly for electricity to turn back on so that they could watch a film that we promised them to show. As we completed the task, these kids thank God in prayer for the electricity. My heart overjoyed and I was blessed with the kind of heart these kids have for Jesus.

Prior to our trip, all I wanted was God to move and to reveal His glory to me. That was exactly what happened in Kansurok. I experienced God in an entirely new way. I found a freedom that I haven’t known here at home. God changed me and become more real to me than ever before. I realized how sharing Jesus with someone wasn’t as difficult as I thought it to be. My faith increased greatly and found out that all I had to do was make myself available to Him, listen to His voice and He would use me.

We all know that this is just the beginning and God has great things in store for the people of Kansurok. We are amazed how God took full control of everything during our stay there. We let Him use us the way He wanted us to be. It was nothing of our own doing, but all Him. He instilled in all of us a tremendous amount of boldness and faith. He filled us with the Holy Spirit so that when we go forth and share the Word, we know everything is under His hand. God touched and changed our lives first before He worked in us to touch other people’s lives.

God was a father, a healer, a deliverer, and provider to the people of Kansurok and to us as a missions’ team. There’s no single moment where God had turned His back on any of us, instead there were countless of instances where God’s hand covered us with protection.

Once I made up my mind to go on this trip and took that first step of faith, I was stunned at how everything simply fell into place. God graciously provided the funds that the team needed to fund the mission. There was a tremendous outpouring of support from friends, family and church - we got a good amount of monetary donations, used and new clothes and other articles that the team needed for the various ministries that we had planned.

The delectable food is certainly worthy to mention plus the motherly-care of the whole family of Sister Belen Marciano. The leadership and cooperation of the team did an excellent job preparing us for the trip and leading us while we were in Kansurok. Although there are some minor setbacks, God has fixed everything and we’re all victorious!

I’ll probably end up writing a novel if I will go into details of all the occurrences of our trip for I know that each one of us has their own stories to share that could testify to God’s grace and mercy.

One of the most important things I’ve learned in this mission trip is that - if you approach the task with an earnest heart, and you take the necessary time in prayer and preparation, you’ll be amazed at the work that God can do through you.

God also used this trip as my training ground as I prepare myself to SCE Ministry. Honestly, my patience for kids is not that long - but after our Kansurok trip, God taught me to be more patient and granted me with more love and passion for the little ones.

Overall, Kansurok Mission Trip taught me about servitude. To serve God was a blessing to me and when I came back to Manila I realized that I needed to do more of that because serving God doesn’t stop in Kansurok.

Let me end my testimony, by requesting everyone to continuously pray for the people of Kansurok – that they will continue to grow in their spiritual lives and that they will keep the gospel from flowing to the ends of the earth. May the good Lord seal their hearts against worries and temptations!

Barangay Ginebra reigns

For the 13th time, Barangay Ginebra displays their supremacy and still undefeated team for almost two months after overpowering Air21 Express, 106-95, taking the Game 1 of their best-of-seven finals showdown in the Smart-PBA Fiesta Conference Wednesday night at the Araneta Coliseum.

Mark Caguioa sparked as he led the Gin Kings with 22 points and seven rebounds as they dissuaded the courageous Express.

Kings were scoreless for the first minutes of the first quarter after Raffi Reavis scored the first basket for the Gin Kings and ended up the first quarter leading by six points.

Import Chris Alexander became greater as he scored 18 points and 25 rebounds to make up for the appalling free throw shooting where he only nailed two out of 10.

Junthy Valenzuela and Jayjay Helterbrand as well as slotman Eric Menk each scored 12 markers to block Air21’s rally.

I'm Blessed!

"Praise God for the experience I had during our short ministry in Cabuyao, Laguna held on May 27 and June 03. It was a magnificent occurrence talking and sharing the gospel to people who are total strangers to me but opted to pray to receive Christ in their hearts. I was blessed because God used me to share His good news to those wonderful people.

Please pray for all of the OFWs in Cabuyao, for financial provision to pay for their placement fees and for good employers as well."

Bullies vs. Underdog

(originally posted on Feb 14, 2008)

Since Lozada’s appearance, anomaly in ZTE-NBN deal became the hottest topic of every group in the country again. And I’m one of the avid followers of this seige.

For the past week, I kept myself updated on the issue. I watched all the news airing the issue, I read it on the broadsheets. I guess I became obsessed on the subject.

I’m not that super nationalistic but I love the Philippines and I have my own vision and dream for the country. While watching Lozada’s testimony in the Senate, I feel his pains and fears. I guess he’s hurting because he too has his own vision and dream for the country and because of this issue, everything will be shattered. He fears that nobody will believe in him, he fears that people around him will harm him. But I guess the most important fear he had is his fear in our God.

The last time we heard and saw something like this was more than seven years ago, during ERAP impeachment trial. Everyday for as long as the trial lasted (and it went on for three months) our neighborhood rang with the collective sound of TV sets tuned in to one thing. It became so addictive it actually produced withdrawal pangs among watchers when it stopped.

During the 10-hour marathon hearing in the Senate, you could obviously see who’s the underdog and who’s the bully. Administration officials seem so firm in hitting Lozada’s testimony against them. It’s a long journey of lying in defense of their actions only to find their way back saying the truth which corroborates with Lozada’s. It’s true, big fish can be caught through its mouth, right Mr. Defensive?

The same visuals pitting the underdogs versus the schoolyard bullies in the Senator’s lane are there. The only difference being that during Estrada’s time Joker Arroyo who’s campaign tag line was “’pag bad ka, lagot ka!” was one of the underdogs while this time he is one of the bullies. All the respect I had for Joker has gone and maybe he should read over his tagline again. Juan Ponce Enrile, of course, would complain that the hearing, conducted admirably by Alan Peter Cayetano, would waste his time, as though his 80 years of life do not represent an utter waste of time, and this country’s time along with it. Miriam Santiago as always remains the devil’s advocate and calling for the stoppage of the hearing for this will only serve as promotion for those who aspire in 2010 election. You could also perceptively see who’s the administration and who’s on the opposition. hehehe

It was that “underdogs versus bullies” theme that demolished the Estrada myth in the eyes of the “masa”, turning him from the underdog-hero of his action movies to the top dog-villain of real life. And that is the theme that will undo this government. When I wasn’t cursing Lozada’s abductors last Monday, I was applauding them: “hala sige, kaya nyo yan! Banat pa ng kasinungalingan!” Maybe that’s what it will take to rouse this country from its stupor.

Just as well, can any Good be painted more brightly? Government has tried to smear Lozada black by showing him to have been scared to appear in the Senate and to have himself profited by cutting corners as a public official. He has readily admitted both and shown himself only to be as human as the best of us, people who stumble and fall but who pick themselves up, limping and staggering to the finish line.

Some people just waste their time on earth, however they live to 80 years. Others make the most of it, however they discover their true worth only at 45.

I guess we will see more of the Bullies vs. Underdog fight in the coming days! I just hope that after all this, the truth will come out and that people behind this will be penalized! Let be our God be our guide

Super Evil.

(originally posted on Feb 05, 2008)

It was Oct 2001 when I first joined a national rally to oust former President Estrada. It was also the year that I finally crossed with this super popular “oust” word. The pride I had that year was high as we successfully ousted ERAP.

That year I’m very certain that what I wanted is a government reform, that I wanted a President that will serve the interest of the Philippine people, a leader who is a lesser evil!

I was a super idealistic college girl years ago. I thought that a good person can totally reform the integrity-dying government (good person does not refer to Ate Glue). My idea is simple. Put a person with high moral, integrity and honesty and the Philippines will be a better place to live in. A childish thought. Nowadays, even faith can be shamed, being honest is just a word, and integrity is a good adjective.

Even before, I was never in favor of Ate Glue (who was glued in the Palace) to be the next President. She was an Economist, she knows what’s the best and easy way to gain money to put in her pocket. She was an outstanding Master’s Degree holder that’s why she knows how to master corruption. What else? She was a big failure of EDSA 2.

Yesterday, the House of Representative was in a whole day and night session. The agenda? To oust Speaker Jose De Venecia (“oust” is really a buzzword for 7 years) And at 1am, they finally succeeded. Davao Rep. Boy Nograles is now the new Speaker of the House. Before Nograles’ speech, De Venecia delivered a 59-minute dialogue accusing Malacanang of orchestrating moves to remove him as Speaker. The speech received different reactions. People said it was just a sour-graping statement, a sentimental burst to gain sympathy from other members, others said why now?

Why now? Philippine politics is full of hypocrites. With De Venecia’s “tell all” speech, Ate Glue’s administration is shaking (well, we should remember that Ate Glue is an Economist and Master’s degree holder aside from being a liar and makapal ang mukha, let’s anticipate that she can buy all these accusations J) So let’s go back to the why now question of administration members. Why now? Because unlike you, De Venecia is now out of Ate Glue’s kingdom. He can no longer use Ate Glue’s power and influence for his own good, just like you all guys is doing! Ate Glue can no longer dictate what he should do and he should say to protect the little devil in the Palace. De Venecia is now free to clean his conscience and to fix all the mess that he did during his stay in Ate Glue’s Kingdom.

Gloria should pay for double-crossing Filipino people, for deceiving EDSA 2 supporters.

Ouster of JDV is an obvious indication that Ate Glue can make everything happens in just a snap of her fingers. She is not lesser, she is super evil!

As the world unfolds...

(originally posted on August 06, 2007)

> Life is too short, so do what makes you happy
> Smile a lot even your heart is aching
> Pray as much as you can and always praise and thanks Him
> Be thankful for what you have while working on what you want
> TIME is the best expression of love
> Be good to all your friends not b'coz they are good but b'coz you are good.
> Don't expect people will treat you the same way
> Always do good to your neighbor and don't expect something in return (you do things b'coz you want to kaya don't make sumbat! people didn't force you to be good anyway)
> You meet a lot of new friends and realized that the old ones are still the best
> Prepare yourself to get hurt b'coz even your closest friend can hurt you
> Learn to forgive and forget
> Listen to others' opinion and decide for yourself
> Be happy with your friends' success and be there if they need you
> Don't try to please everybody
> Don't explain; your friends don't need it and your enemy would not believe it.
> Even best friends have their own private lives; it’s up to them if they will share but don't oblige them to divulge everything to you.
> If they choose not to share, respect them
> Everything happens for a reason
> Appreciate your talents before appreciating others (but don’t be so proud)
> Believe that if others can do it, you can too.
> Open yourself to other opportunities
> Don't judge others
> The person you least expect will give you the best advice (thanks rommell!)
> Love as if you never get hurt
> The earth revolves around the sun and continuously change every second
> Be you and keep going!

There are still lots of lessons that will come my way as I continue my journey in life. In weeks, I will start another year of expedition and I know with the lessons of yesteryears that I had and God that never get tired of blessing me, next year will be as easy as ABC. ;)

6th Book: MacArthur

(originally posted on August 06, 2007)

Last month ko pa nabili ang bagong libro ni Bob Ong, ang MACARTHUR sa Fullybooked Gateway, P100 lang. Pagkabili ko binasa ko agad (tapos binasa ko ulit kagabi).. Last year ko pa kasi inaabangan un kahit na alam kong 1 year late laging mag release ng libro si Bob Ong.

Manipis lang ang libro. Kayang basahin ng isang oras habang nag scrabble or nakikipag chess. Excited akong binuklat ang unang pahina. Parang batang binigyan ng ice cream.

Habang binabasa ko ang aklat, tiningnan ko ulit kung Bob Ong nga ang nakalagay sa author. Para kasing hindi si Bob Ong ang sumulat. Kumpara sa limang naunang libro, iba ang banat ng ika anim na libro.

Simula palang ng aklat, alam mo nang hindi pangkaraniwang akda ni Bob Ong ang aklat. Fictional ang MACARTHUR. Walang bahid ng imahe ni Bob ang makikita sa libro. Tanging pag uusap lang ng mga tauhan ang masasalamin sa katauhan ni Bob Ong (dati sigurong adik si Bob Ong? hehehe). Puro murahan. Realidad ng lipunan ang makikita mo sa loob ng libro.

Habang nauubos ko ang pahina ng libro, parang bumibigat ang dibdib ko.. Asan na ang mga kabataang pag asa ng bayan? Sa huli, mapapatanong ka "bakit sila nagkaganon?"
MACARTHUR is one of my favorite Bob Ong books. It touches my heart. It's one of kind... Rockan-rockan na!!! \m/
“Mga bata pa kayo. Pag pinaniwalaan namin kayong hindi naglalaro ng tubig kahit na basang-basa ang mga damit ninyo, kayo ang niloloko namin. Hindi kayo ang nakakapanloko” -p.85, MacArthur

God's Love

(originally posted on May 28, 2007)

“For My thoughts are not your thoughts,
Nor are your ways My ways,” says the LORD.
For as the heavens are higher than the earth,
So are My ways higher than your ways,
And My thoughts than your thoughts."
Isaiah 55:8-9

I've been with different problems and trials in life (and I guess everyone has their own burdens). I already came to a point that I asked God "why I'm suffering all of these?" Am I that bad to be worthy of these penalties? But I got no answer... Not a single one...

If our plans failed, we ask God why?

If we can't have what we what, we ask God why?

If things aren't in their places as we plan it to, we ask God why?

If we are not successful, we ask God why?

If our achievements are little as compared to others, we ask God why?

Often, we're wasting all our time complaining about the bad times of our lives. We devote our strength shouting and crying "what a miserable life we have."

If our plans failed, it is because God is preparing something better than we prepared, He wants to give the best for each of us, and He wants us to recognize those little but important things that He has offered for us. God's love is never measured on how successful we are, on how many places we have traveled, on how many pesos we are earning, on what company we’re working, and so on. God's love is present in the air we breathe, in the beauty of the earth, in someone you love, in YOU!

God may not answer my questions directly, but as I go on with my life I can see the answers as clear as a crystal. God gave me all of these because God loves me... And I'm thankful for what I have right now...

Fly light, worry no more for God is always with us!

Done at last!!!

(done at last! posted on May 08, 2007)

"Two years after I graduated from college, I'll take a short or second course"

I went over to this note written in my college organizer. The whole page contains my personal plans after my college graduation dated January 04, 2002.I ran through the written words in that small piece of paper and suddenly realized that little by little I did accomplish, if not all, most of those written plans.

I remember my first day in Graduate School. It was different. I feel different. At first, I was scared. I'm not certain if I was sure then, if I will make it. If can do it. Most of my first classmates were older than me, were higher ranking in their respective companies, and were more mature, have more experiences to share and more composed. And because of these, I felt more scared. I was 23 when I decided to pursue a Graduate course. I can say that I was the youngest in my first class in Graduate School (well somehow it gave a little pride to be in GS classroom at my age).

My three-and-a-half-year in GS is not a joke. I did a lot of adjustments, self-fed information, research and more readings. Not to mention the pressure I had in my work and my personal problems. I remember one time when I forced to choose whether to take the Comprehensive Examinations on September 2006 or to postpone because of an ailing family member. I was compelled to stop for 1 semester to attend to my father’s needs, a decision I never and will never regret.

As what many speeches said, graduation is not the end but a beginning of an endless journey of life. It is the first step to face the challenging world of humans, to apply what we have learned, to share the wisdom we have gained, and to be a prolific citizen that will provide inspiration and encouragement to the next generation.

A lot of people should be given appreciation and admiration for giving me, in any way, reasons to pursue my degree. I can’t name them one by one in this blog but in my heart you are all remembered and cherished. I owe this little triumph to all of you guys and of course to our Almighty God. Jesus, this is for you!

Graduation Day, Commencement Exercise, or Degree Day, whatever they call it I’m pleased for at last I’m done! To my fellow Master’s and Doctoral graduates… Cheers and Good luck!!!

Music and Lyrics

(the movie that start it all.. posted on March 06, 2007)

I've been living with a shadow overhead
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I've been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past, I just can't seem to move on
I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need em again someday
I've been setting aside time
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind
All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
Oh oh oh
I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I've been searching but I just don't see the signs
I know that it's out there
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere
I've been looking for someone to shed some light
Not just somebody just to get me throught the night
I could use some direction
And I'm open to your suggestions
All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart again
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end
There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration 
Not just another negotiation
All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love

And if I open my heart to you
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do
And if you help me to start again
You know that I'll be there for you in the end

I watched this movie with a friend. I enjoyed the movie the way I enjoyed his company. He is different. First, we had a hard time choosing for the right movie, we ended up tossing a coin to choose one. Then finally, we have the Music and Lyrics, a Drew Barrymore-Hugh Grant film.

I love the music they created, the song expresses the need to leave the past behind in order to make it's "way back into love". Another realization that is so hard to put into action.

I'm just thankful that I watched this movie with someone who's leading me back into love! *wink*

Ginebra and Bebejho!

(originally posted on Feb 27, 2007)

Syempre... Congrats muna sa Baranggay Ginebra Kings for being the TNT All-Filipino Cup Champ! A well-deserved series for the Kings! Cheers!


It's been years since I first sung the "Ginebra! Ginebra!" chant. It was my father who swayed me to love this team, and I'd like to thank him for that.

I can say that I grew up with Ginebra (Anejo then). I followed every single game. I've witnessed the trading and changing of players from conference to conference. I celebrated with them during those winning moments and mourned during lossing times.

I really don't know why this team affect my life. The joy it brings when the team won the game and the pain it caused when they are down.

People may find it silly, but Ginebra is my life!

Munting Kasiyahan

originally posted on February 06, 2007

Game 6... Araneta Astrodome, 2pm

18,377 paying attendees... At isa ako sa record breaking stats na yan ng PBA. Syempre I'm cheering for Barangay Ginebra Kings.

Lumaki ako sa pamilya na mahilig sa basketball at Ginebra fanatics. Mula sa tatay, nanay at mga kuya, ate, ako at ang bunso. Lahat kami GINEBRA lang ang alam isigaw. Iba ang pakiramdam pag nanalo ang team namin... Para bang me balato kami sa mga sahod na nakukuha ng bawat player. Para bang sisikat din kami pag sumigaw kami ng GINEBRA! At para bang kami ang team manager ng Gins... Wala lang... Masaya lang talaga pag panalo kami!

Crucial game ang Game 6 ng semis. Although lamang kami (as in kami noh) sa series to the tune of 3-2, nakakakaba pa din ang game na 'to lalo na malakas ang kalaban at injured pa si Major Pain. Kung kailan ba naman kasi semis na saka pa nakipagrambolan itong si Menk.. :-)

Exciting ang game. Palitan ng lamang. Hindi man naging ganon ka productive sina Caguioa at Helterbrand, still Gin Kings proved that they can win kahit wala masyado stats ang dalawang key players nila. At napatunayan din ng Kings na kaya nila despite all odds.

Masaya. Masaya. Talagang masaya. At bilang ganti, me picture kami ni Team manager... hahaha!

Congrats Gin Kings!!! Good Luck sa finals!

Yesterday..Today.. and Tomorrow!

Yesterday we're fine
Yesterday we're like drinking wine
Yesterday we found friendship
A trust we hope to last!

Yesterday seemed so right
Yesterday we started it bright
Yesterday just me and you
And all my worries we're blown

But today is different
Today I feel alone
Today I'm filled with sadness
For today I lost a friend.

Today I felt distress
Today I failed a test
Today it's like I'm lost
'coz someone became a ghost.

Tomorrow is uncertain
Tomorrow can be doubtful
Tomorrow may be conditional
Maybe a promise that will not come!

Tomorrow is another day,
Tomorrow I'll endure the pain
Tomorrow I will live again
Maybe to find my way back home!

25 Silver Years...

(originally posted on November 07, 2007)

I call it the "Quarter-life Crisis." It is when I want to stop the world to take a look of my own life. A time in my life when I started to count my accomplishments, number of trials and reckon my triumph.

It is when we, people of my age, stop going along with the crowd and start realizing that there are many things about ourselves that we didn't know and may not like. We start feeling insecure and wonder where we will be in a year or two, but then get scared because we barely know where we are now.

We start realizing that people are selfish and that, maybe, those friends that we thought we were so close to aren't exactly the greatest people we have ever met, and the people we have lost touch with are some of the most important ones. What we don't recognize is that they are realizing that too, and aren't really cold or insincere, but that they are as confused as we are.

We look at our job... and it is not even close to what we thought we would be doing, or maybe we are looking for a job and realizing that we are going to have to start at the bottom and that scares us.

Our opinions have gotten stronger. We see what others are doing and find ourselves judging more than usual because suddenly we realize that we have certain boundaries in our life and are constantly adding things to our list of what is acceptable and what isn't. One minute, we are insecure and then the next, secure. We laugh and cry with the greatest force of our lives. We feel alone and scared and confused.

Suddenly, change is our enemy and we try and cling on to the past, but soon realize that the past is drifting further and further away, and there is nothing to do but stay where we are or move forward.

We get our heart broken and wonder how someone we loved could do such damage to us. Or we lie in bed and wonder why we can't meet anyone decent enough that we want to get to know better. Or maybe we love someone but love someone else too and cannot figure out why we are doing this because we know that we aren't a bad person.

We go through the same emotions and questions over and over, and talk with our friends about the same topics because we cannot seem to make a decision. We worry about loans, money, the future and making a life for ourselves... and while winning the race would be great, right now we'd just like to be a contender!

We are in our best of times and our worst of times, trying as hard as we can to figure this whole thing out. Life is beautiful. It is a gift to be enjoyed. Live each day as if it’s your last. Forget the past and try to move on, live in the present and stop worrying for the future. In the end, it is not always we get what we want or what we need, but it’s just right to get what we deserved!

ang kapayapaan bago ang kaunlaran....

(originally posted on September 19, 2006)

Heto ang KAPAYAPAAN na alam ko, kahit wala pang KAUNLARAN...

Si Nanay ay nasa bahay pag-uwi namin galing sa paaralan;
Walang mga bakod at gate ang magkakapit-bahay, kung meron gumamela lang;

10 sentimos o diyes lang ang baon: singko sa umaga, singko sa hapon;
Merong free ang mga patpat ng ice drop: buko man o munggo.

Mataas ang paggalang sa mga guro at ang tawag sa kanila ay Maestro/a:
Di binibili ang tubig, pwedeng maki-inom sa di mo kakilala.

Malaking bagay na ang pumunta sa ilog para mag-picnic, o kaya sa

Grabe na ang kaso pag napatawag ka sa principal's office o kaya malaking kahihiyan kapag bagsak ka sa exams;

Simple lang ang pangarap: makatapos, makapag-asawa, mapagtapos ang mga anak...

Pwedeng iwan ang sasakyan at ibilin sa hindi mo kakilala; wala namang lock ang mga jeep na Willy's noon.

Mayroon kaming mga laruan na gawa namin at hindi binili: trak-trakan(gawa sa rosebowl ang katawan at darigold na maliit ang mga gulong, "sketeng" (scooter) na bearing na maingay ang mga gulong at de-sinkong pako para sa preno; patining na pinitpit na tansan lang na may 2 butas sa gitna para suotan ng sinulid (pwede pang makipag-lagutan); sumpak, pilatok, boca-boca, borador, atbp.

Di nakikialam ang mga matanda sa mga laro ng mga bata: kasi laro nga iyon. Maraming usong laro at maraming kasali: laste, gagamba, turumpo, tatsing ng lata, pera namin ay kaha ng Philip Morris, Malboro, Champion (kahon-kahon yon!)

May dagta ang dulo ng tinting na hawak mo para makahuli tutubi, nandadakma ka ng palakang tetot, pero ingat ka sa palakang saging dahil sa kulugo;

Butas na ang sakong ng Spartan mong tsinelas - suot mo pa rin;

Namumugalgal ang pundiya ng kansolsilyo mo kasi nakasalampak ka sa lupa.

Sa modernong buhay at sa lahat ng kasaganaan sa high technology... di ba minsan nangarap ka na rin... mas masaya noong araw! Sana pwedeng maibalik...

Takot tayo ngayon sa buhay. Kasi maraming napapatay, nakikidnap, maraming addict at masasamang loob... Noon takot lang tayo sa ating mga magulang at mga lolo at lola. Pero ngayon, alam na natin na mahal pala nila tayo kayat ayaw tayong mapahamak o mapariwara... Na una silang nasasaktan pag pinapalo nila tayo...

Balik tayo sa nakaraan kahit saglit...

Bago magkaroon ng internet, computer, at cellphone.

Noong wala pang mga drugs at malls.

Bago pa nauso ang counter strike at mga game boys.

Tayo noon... Doon...

Tinutukoy ko ang harang taga o tumbang preso kapag maliwanag ang buwan; Ang pagtatakip mo ng mata pero nakasilip sa pagitan ng mga daliri pag nanonood ka ng nakakatakot sa "Mga Aninong Gumagalaw"

Unahan tayong sumagot sa Multiplication Table na kabisado natin, kasi wala namang calculator. Abacus lang ang meron tayo...

Pag-akyat natin sa mga puno; pagkakabit ng kulambo; lundagan sa kama;

Pagtikwas o pagtitimba sa poso; pingga ang pang-igib ng lalake at may dikin naman ang ulo ng babae;

Inaasbaran ng mga suberbiyo ang usansiya; Nginig na tayo pag lumabas na ang yantok-mindoro o buntot-page.

Nai-sako ka rin ba? O kaya naglagay ka ba ng karton sa pwet para hindi masakit ang tsinelas o sinturon?

Pamimili ng bato sa bigas; tinda-tindahan na puro dahon naman, bahay-bahayan na puro kahon; naglako ka ba ng ice-candy o pandesal noong araw?

Karera sa takbuhan hanggang maubos ang hininga; pagtawa hanggang sumakit ang tiyan;

Meron pa bang himbabao, kulitis at pongapong? O kaya ng lukaok, susuwi at espada?

Susmaryosep ang nadidinig mo pag nagpapaligo ng bata... Estigo santo kapag nagmamano.

Mapagod sa kakalaro, minsan mapalo; matakot sa "berdugo" at sa "kapre";

Tuwang-tuwa kami pag tinalo ang tinale ni itay kasi may tinola!

Yung crush mo?

Pag recess: mamimili ka sa garapon ng tinapay - alembong, taeng-kabayo o biscocho?

Pwede ring ang sukli ay kending Vicks (meron pang libreng singsing) o kaya nougat o karamel;

Kung gusto mo naman - pakumbo o kaya kariba, mas masaya kung inuyat;

Puriko ang matika, at mauling na ang mukha at ubos na ang hininga mo sa ihip kasi mahirap magpa-rikit ng apoy.

Madami pa...

Masarap ang kamatis na piniga sa kamay at lumabas sa pagitan ng daliri para sa sawsawan, ang palutong pag isawsaw sa sukang may siling labuyo, ang duhat kapag inalog sa asin, ang isa-sang isubo ang daliri kasi puno na ng kanin...

Halo-halo: yelo, asukal at gatas lang ang sahog;

Sakang ang lakad mo at nakasaya ka kasi bagong tuli ka; o naghahanap ka ng chalk kasi tinagusan ang palda mo sa eskwelahan.

Lipstick mo ay papel de hapon; Labaha ang gamit para sa white-side-wall na gupit;

Naglululon ka ng banig pagkagising; matigas na amirol ang mga punda at kumot; madumi ang manggas ng damit mo kasi doon ka nagpapahid ng sipon, di ba? Pwede rin sa laylayan...

May mga program kapag Lunes sa paaralan; May pakiling kang dala kung Biyernes kasi magi-isis ka ng desk.

Di ba masaya? Naalala mo pa ba?

Wala nang sasaya at gaganda pa sa panahon na yon...

Masaya noon at masaya pa rin tayo ngayon habang ina-alaala iyon...

Di ba noon...

Ang mga desisyon ay ginagawa sa awit na "sino ba sa dalawang ito? Ito ba o ito?" Pag ayaw ang resulta di ulitin: "sino ba sa dalawang ito? Ito ba o ito?"...

Awit muna: Penpen de Serapen, de kutsilyo, de almasen. How how the carabao batuten...

Presidente ng klase ay ang pinakamagaling, hindi ang pinaka-mayaman;

Masaya na tayo basta sama-sama kahit hati-hati sa kokonti;

Nauubos ang oras natin sa pagku-kwentuhan, may oras tayo sa isat-isa;

Naaasar ka kapag marami kang sunog sa sungka; kapag buro ka sa pitik-bulag o matagal ka ng taya sa holen.

Yung matatandang kapatid ang pinaka-ayaw natin pero sila ang tinatawag natin pag napapa-trouble tayo.

Di natutulog si Inay, nagbabantay pag may trangkaso tayo; meron tayong skyflakes at Royal sa tabi.

Kung naaalaala mo ito... nabuhay ka na sa KAPAYAPAAN!

Pustahan tayo nakangiti ka pa rin!

Nasa iyo ang susi... paki-buksan lang kaibigan...

Deleting Files

(originally posted on September 19, 2006)

Open file: C\Documents\SIYA; right click DELETE; Are you sure you want to send "SIYA.doc" to the recycle bin? YES; Deleted: Recycle bin: Empty Recycle bin: Yes; Recycle Bin empty..

Sana ganito lang kadali magdelete ng mga bagay na ayaw mo nang maalala sa buhay mo.. Sana ganito lang kadaling magtanggal ng mga nais mong tanggalin sa isip mo... Sana as easy as ABC lang ang lumimot... Sana effortless ang mag move on...

Sabi nga ng isang text message from a friend:

in life the greatest handicap is FEAR
the hardest thing to do is MOVING ON
the useless asset is PRIDE
the scariest thing ti do is CHANGE
and the greatest mistake is GIVING UP

Bakit ba kasi ang hirap mag move on?? Mahirap ba talaga o ayaw mo lang talagang kalimutan? Umaasa ka pa rin ba na sa huli eh kayo pa ring dalawa? :(

i miss you guys!!!

(originally posted on September 18, 2006)

Nagsimula ang lahat sa iskuwela. nagsama-samang' labingdalwa'.
Sa kalokohan at sa tuksuhan, hindi maawat sa isat-isa.
Madalas ang istambay sa capetirya. Isang barkada na kay' saya.
laging may hawak-hawak na gitara, konting hudyut lamang kakanta na.

kay simple lamang ng buhay 'non, walang mabibigat na suliranin.
prublema lamang laging kulang ang datung.
saan na napunta ang panahon.

Saan na nga ba, saan nanga ba?
saan na napunta ang panahon.

Sa unang ligaw kayo'y magkasama, magkasabwat sa pambobola.
Walang sikreto kayong tinatago, O kaysarap ng samahang barkada.
nagkawatakan na sa kolehio, kanya-kanya na ang lakaran.
kahit minsanan na lang kung magkita, pagkaka-ibiga'y hindi nawala.

At kung saan na napadpad ang ilan,
sa dating iskwela'y meron' ding naiwan.
Meron' pa ngang mga ilang nawala na lang,
nakaka miss ang dating samahan.

Ilang taon din ang nakalipas, bawat isa sa ami'y tatay na.
nagsusumikap upang yumaman, at guminhawang kinabukasan.
Paminsan-minsan kami'y nagkikita, mga naiwan at nat ira.
At gaya nung araw namin sa iskwela, pag magkasama ay nagwawala.

Napakahirap malimutan, ang saya ng aming samahan.
Kahit lumipas na ang iilang taon, magkabarkada parin ngayon.

Friday, June 5, 2009

sentiments of the heart...

Forget his name, forget his face;
Forget his kiss, his warm embrace.
Forget his love that once was true
Remember now he has someone new.

Forget the love you once shared
Forget the fact that he once cared
Forget the times you spent together
Remember now he's gone forever!

Forget that you cried all night long
Forget him when they play your song
Forget his word so sweet and tender
Remember now he has chosen her

Forget you memorized his walk
Forget the way he used to talk
Forget the times when he was mad
Remember with her he is happy not sad.

Forget the thrills when he passed by
Forget the times he made you cry
Forget the way he spoke your name
Remember now things aren't the same.

Forget the thought that love would last
Forget them all they're in the past
Forget the dreams that won't come true
Forget him now he has forgotten YOU!!!


After a while, you learn the subtle difference
between holding a hand and chaining a soul,
And you learn that love doesn't mean leaning
And company doesn't mean security,
And you begin to learn that kisses aren't contracts
And presents aren't promises,
And you begin to accept your defeats
With the grace of a woman,
not the grief of a child,
And learn to build all your roads on today
Because tomorrow's ground is too uncertain for plans,
And futures have a way of falling down in mid-flight
And after a while, you learn
That even sunshine burns if you get too much.
So you plant your own garden
and decorate your own soul,
Instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers.
And you learn that you really can endure...
That you really are strong
And you really do have worth
And you learn
and learn...
With every goodbye, you learn.

(posted on Aug '05)

wEn LoVe diEs...

SOMETIMES, love dies. And there is no easy explanation for it.

Some of us see it coming. Some of us dont. But
most of us try not to see it at all. Because it is
easier to pretend that all is well rather than admit that
your dreams have been shattered and you are left only
with the broken pieces of your heart.

It hurts to imagine the person we love with
someone else. It hurts to no longer be the object of his
affections. It hurts to no longer be the center of his
universe. It hurts to no longer be wanted. It hurts to
be discarded, replaced and dumped
unceremoniously like an old rag that has outlived
its usefulness.

It hurts to no longer be loved.

But it happens everyday to the best among us to
the beautiful, the kind, the talented, the smart, the
successful, the multi-awarded. It happens to the
perfect wife, sister, friend and mother. It happens
to the civic leader, the CEO, the cover girl.

Whether or not its something we did or didnt do,
sometimes, love just dies. And overthinking would serve no purpose.

To be loved is a blessing. But to no longer be loved
is not necessarily a tragedy.

Weve been raised since childhood to believe that
love must last forever. And perhaps it must. But
isnt it possible to simply be happy for the love you have
no matter if it doesnt last forever? Isnt it possible
to simply savor the moment and become richer by it
without wanting to possess it forever? Isnt it
possible to love and let go and love again?

Isnt it possible to love forever but to love different
people over time?

Its all right to no longer be loved. Its all right to
stop loving. Its all right to mourn for loves losses but to
condemn yourself to a life of misery because your
love did not last forever is foolhardy. If love must
die, let it go peacefully into the night.

But dont keep score. Love is not a contest. It is
not a competition to see who emerges the prettiest, the
craftiest or toughest. Love is what it is a gift. It
cannot be forced on anyone. Neither can it be
forced out of anyone. So let it be.

When love dies, hold on to the memories. But let
go of the one you love... :-)

Don't stare at the close door that long, move 0n and try to stay happy!

(originally posted on Aug 2005)

Wednesday, June 3, 2009

Imagine Me without You - Jaci Velasquez

As long as stars shine down from heaven
And the rivers run into the sea
Til the end of time forever
You’re the only love I’ll need

In my life you’re all that matters
In my eyes the only truth I see
When my hopes and dreams have shattered
You’re the one that’s there for me

When I found you I was blessed
And I will never leave you, I need you

Imagine me without you
I’d be lost and so confused
I wouldn’t last a day, I’d be afraid
Without you there to see me through

Imagine me without you
Lord, you know it’s just impossible
Because of you, it’s all brand new
My life is now worthwhile
I can’t imagine me without you

When you caught me I was falling
You’re love lifted me back on my feet
It was like you heard me calling
And you rush to set me free

When I found you I was blessed
And I will never leave you, I need you


When I found you I was blessed
And I will never leave you, I need you oh


I can’t imagine me without you